(This was Posted on my FA page but i'll post here as well)
As you know on Christmas I left a journal entry saying that nobody liked me and I felt like I was being use. I am surprised I got a good few comments to help me out despite me not commenting back. I think people who watch me last year would know that I was suffering With Depression but there wasn't a flat out what depression.
Well... After the journal post I look online and discover thoguh my family what I'm suffering with, Major Depression Disorder (MDD) it also is know as unipolar disorder and Clinical depression. Now if you look this confusion up you would find out this is the worst one to get for it is the one that may cause someone to take their own life. Learning with both my family trees I concluded that this was due to a chemical imbalance in the brain that started around the end of 2012 leading to 2013. However I thoguh this sadness was because of financial reason so didn't pay much attention to it, that was until I finally have a full time job with decent benefits...And realize I was still depress. Because of this I would say last year 2016 was the worst year for me. I was aguing and getting sad from my friends happynes and became envious of their gifts despite I never was before, I started to do less art and worst I was indeed playing with the idea of sucide. ..
The good news thoguh is I told both my parents how I been feeling which has help me out. I have also talk with my family doctor about it and currently on a trial period of anti depressions, can't say if they fully working with me but has seen a improvement when it comes to taking more control of my life. So right now I'm and tracking on a road to recovery, it's possible I might be down again but I am fight to make sure I do relapse again.
So what does this mean for art? I still am fine with drawing people stuff but I have to try to draw things for myself, and I take request as that, meaning I might not do then if I'm not in the right mindset but that's fine. I'm hoping to this year post more of my art with a help of a friend to get we of it posted on this channel.
But I am focusing my time on something else too, In September I have started recording and uploading long plays on YouTube for gameplay. The best to describe my channel is if you like Vinesauce chances are you like my stuff, I give at lease everyone I'm off and viriaty of games to look at. Althoguh I can't directly tell you my channel because I don't want it to be linked to this account, if you are interested I could send it thoguh PMS or something private.
So that's really it for a update, I hope to hear some people back at lease from this journal entry and I do thank you for taking the time to read this.